from high to low

from high to low
i so quickly go
masking the truth
masking the pain
making it all what to gain
trying to make proud
i hid in the clouds
allowing only a beacon to shine your way

face the tears
move on and grow strong
why couldn’t i just take it and go
instead i turned to a solution of sorts
nearly tossing everything i claim out the door
happy it made me…for a while at least
happy it didn’t stay with me…not long really

i made it through the day
with nothing to claim
only a disgrace to attach to my name
i’m a huge shame

some of the things i hated most about him
have become such a part of me
what will it take for me to see
this isn’t the key

a change i promised yet on my face i’ve already fallen
choice lies before me
proceed as before and claim it to win it and all will go well
proccee as i should and face the heat, take the pain, and move on
…what will it be?

lord, god, this weekend we’ve sortof turned the tables back around
i asked you to guide my ways
with the summer i laid it all on your plate
pros and cons both of which i had many
you ultimately knew the way
so to you it all i prayed
now i run,i haide, i lie
all the world i can play but from you never hide
you know me…the real me…the me i despise
the me i hate, the me i wish would fade with the night
my plight has drawn nigh
i’ve come to the end of the road
i’m done…

~ by nietzscheiam on April 16, 2008.