reliving the past

desiring the day to stop
to rewind and start time over
somehow i can change it all…or can i
in my mind i try to make things better
but time cannot be reversed
inside i’m falling to pieces trying on the outside to maintain face
composure is a much as i’m thrust into world that continues on

i miss him so badly
i’m living the week all over again
tomorrow’s the anniversary,
yet it seemed like yesterday with it being the day

living the week all over again
i fight to maintain face
i fight to hold it all together
i fight to be strong
i fight to continue on

once again i’m crumbling inside
once again i find myself in the same place again
if only i can stay awake time won’t pass on
if only i can change the course of time things will return to how they were
if only i can…but i can’t

lost in time, the question begs
will i comitt the same poor judgments only returning to this dreadful place once again

please help me God to overcome
please help me God to accept
please help me God to deal
please help me God to leave this place and never again to return
please help me God to learn and grow and become who You want me to be

~ by nietzscheiam on April 28, 2008.