to conquer or be conquered

the uphill climb takes forever it seems
yet the tumble down goes fast and unseen

i desire to be far from here
i fought to move beyond this

somehow i return although I despise it
no matter how hard and far I run, I can never go far enough

i desire to be someone I’m not
i desire to be someone I wonder if I can ever become

feeling once again as if defeat has overcome me
feeling as if i can’t get beyond myself

am i the problem of it all
am i the problem that will not cease
am i the problem i can’t get beyond

i don’t get it how thigns changed so quickly
how could i go from there to here
where do i want to go from here?

God is this it?
Is this as good as it gets?
Am I the problem I can’t outrun?
Am I the problem I can’t seem to overcome?
Do I merely have to learn to accept myself as I am?
Do I have to determine to accept my failures?
Do I have to determine I am choiceless to an extent…
either I have to determine to live conquered or be conquered…which will it be?

~ by nietzscheiam on May 8, 2008.